All about me and my life..

Negativity

2011-05-23T14:56:00.001+08:00

Some people are just plain negative..... Negative people pull you down. chin up and screw those comments.
Who the hell thinks that things are gonna end when there is still light.
Negative power makes u a boo hoo person.

Lies

2011-05-20T15:31:00.003+08:00

Many people told me that I should tell some white lies and not to be so honest and naive. Come to think of it.....maybe I should. :P

Life is a bliss when you know what and where you stand in the world.

Love should be cherish as you know you will be loved back......

Weeeeee

2011-05-12T16:32:00.000+08:00

Weeeeee...... I can dance again...

Reallly been looking for a place to dance and to take exams again and finally finallly the dream is coming true..........

Alll boils doen to Monday and we will see if i could do either the inter or pre inter..
wish me luck.

Stuck in a Dilemma

2011-05-03T12:20:00.002+08:00

Now K wanna try aussie land but then the feedbacks from people there are so negative. My neighbour is coming back next month from Sydney because she says earning 5k a month is not enough to sustain a reasonable life in Sydney city, mind you she is renting a 1 bedroom apartment that cost her nealy 2k a month. Some of my friends in Melbourne told me that going back without a high paying job is going to be bad for me and K. My uni friends however states otherwise saying that its not that bad. So now the question is should I do it. I really don't wanna be stinging in everything when I am there. Maybe I should just only be back for holidays.

K is fine if he gets a job. So now its all up to me. Sozzee why oh why...............but its true that I won't have a family there. I know all I have is u guys. But isnt that just enough. do I need more???? I mean I will be busy setting up my new life there. Plus I am only planning to be in Melbourne not Sydney. Everyone that told me not to waste my money lives in Sydney. So most probably Sydney is realllly expensive but Melbourne is fine right?????

SC just moved to Sydney from Melbourne because her bf was offered a 120k job there and she is making a lot tooo as an actuarist, but they still complain that they can't save up enough to buy a house even after selling their houses in Melbourne. So now........ will Melbourne be the same as Sydney. I don't wanna live in boring Adelaide or Canberra... as all my friends are in Melbourne.

Krystal is coming back also from Sydney to Singapore and her fiance is a GP.... and she is a pharmacist and she thinks its hard tooo. If its hard for them what about us. What about our future generation....

there is only a few people that are still in Melbourne and non in Sydney (going to be) as they decided to move back to KL or Singapore. So I guess maybe things are not so green at the other end

I will see if my other friend feels in Sydney when she goes......... then only I will make my decision.

I rest my case.........

DIET FAIL Part XYZ

2011-04-22T14:01:00.003+08:00

I really don't know how many attempts I made to go on a DIET and it failed. My stupid stomach and brains failed me today, wait more like willpower failed me. I had nasi lemak..... yes NASI LEMAK which i had not touched for a few months this morning. I got so guilty half way eating eat and decided to stop. Diet failed part 2 today when I had 2 KFC chicken breast because Pauline told me its only 700 calories without the skin.... bravo to that.
Now lets see how am I going to screw my dinner up.....hmmmmmmm

So I guesss its the DIET starts tommorow story for me now.

Neeed a Break sooon

2011-04-22T11:51:00.002+08:00

I NEED A HOLIDAY>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Dammmm I reallly need a holiday but I don't really know where to go. I wanna go back to Melbourne and sip coffee by little Bourke St while watching time goes by or maybe go back to Perhentian and soak up some sun or perhaps I should just take some time off and just laze around at home. I have not taken a day off ever since Jan as I am saving it up for my second half of the year's non stop holiday. So I guess I have to reallly suck it up till June comes and off I go to Singapore to meet my Honey for a Singapore shopping trip.
So tilll then... tooodles.

Reasons to life in the land of kangaroos or NOT

2011-03-31T11:28:00.003+08:00

Reasons why I should go 1) I love the life there. 2) People there are less fake and make more sense (at least the people I know) 3) Love the working enviroment 4) Love shopping there ( that is if I land myself an awesome job) 5) I can dance all week 6) Me just love it there...... ( I know stupid) Reasons why I shouldnt go.... 1) Bad for my kids.....( not education in terms of brought up) 2) U donate half ur income to the goverment to keep you happy (in long term) 3) Leaving my family behind 4) You are second class citizens and people will look down on you 5) Too many Natural Disasters 6) You will need 2 generations to pay off your house 7) Childcare cost a fortune 8) Shopping centers closes at 6 except for fridays 9) so that I dont have to spend RM20k on applying for the visa Dammmm more cons than pros.... so I guess the saying that the grass is always greener on the other side is reallly true. Its alll an illusion. I spoken to my friend last night from koala land and she told me that its not that nice to live in Koala land as the cost of living has gone up tremendously. Meaning unless you have a awsome pawsome job and both husband and wife are working you will live a pretty poor miserable life. She told me to rather live in Europe or Singapore or Malaysia which now I come to think about it is true. Dammmm man I reallly need help........how what to do. To dive into the green grass that I imagine or do look for a green patch in where I am.....

Life at an intersection

2011-03-30T16:33:00.002+08:00

What do you dont know what to do with your life. I am at an intersection right now where if I do go forth with my PR application I will leave for aussie land in months and might not be able to have a life like I do now. But if I dont I will be stuck with my parents here for life. Ok I will let the law make my decision. If I do qualify for the point system in July I will do it and give it a go and since KJ is willing to go with me. If not I will stay and do my dad's business. Going there is not going to be easy for me as I need to start everything a new. Need a good paying job and all is not going to be an easy job. Will see how things go. As for me and KJ the only things we need is to talk to my parents which is going to be a bitch I know. So just pray that things will just work out for me.....:)

A new Year a new life

2011-02-11T16:25:00.002+08:00

A new year and a new life has begun. I am beginning to realise why my parents disagree with me being overseas and all. I will try my best here in KL for another few years before I decided to take my luck elsewhere. I love being able to have the freedom to do all I want when I am in Melbourne. However that's because my family wasnt there. Now i guess my mom has let things go a little more on me so we will see how things go.

As with the bf, we are getting there. I hope things will be bright and shinny for us :).

As for my work..... willll update that when things get clearer.
Now my only goal is to save up more and be happpy :P

Feeling Crap

2010-12-01T13:52:00.003+08:00

You know how the saying goes learn to love yourself before you love others.
I reallly have not love myself that much lately. I have been abusing myself with pillls and vitamins and medicines and all the shit. I know I might not live long but oh wellll. All I can say is I wanna be there for him right now. Be there for as long as I could. Learn to love him and learn to be a better person. I wanna sometimes bash myself up thinking what the hell you just did.

How sick my thoughts are

2010-10-21T13:22:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I think maybe just maybe if I were to be missing or lost who will be worried for me.
I am seriously seriously dissapointed with my mom. Every guy I date she has something to say. frist T she says he is a gambler and looks retarted. Ok fine. Then KJ, he is an indian and he might not make enough to support you and the family in future. So whats next...........
It just seems to me like my mom doesnt like every guy I date.... I don't know.
To me she just doesn't want me to get married and stay with her for the rest of her life and be her gal. Oh welll if that is what she wants I guessss I willl probably give in since I don't think I willl ever get married. So why bother looking forward for pushing people to marry me. End of the day my mom willl stilll say no..................
Since mom threaten me that if I do she might get a heart attack and die or whatsoever
And I might even make my dad sick and all my sisters not able to get married.
So whatever it is its my fault if any of this happens to me.
So what will u choose urself or ur family????????

Screw man.... can't wait tillllll I die.
I know I am full of shit.
But when you are in my situation you might be suiciding toooooo.

Gonna Start bloging back

2010-10-21T13:05:00.002+08:00

I seriously screwed up my life, I think. I am sooo aimless so full of negativity. When I first started dating T at 19 I thought my life was pretty much set. Get married at 27 have kids at 29 and help dad out in his business. Oh was I so screwed when mom forced me to come back to KL after I graduated and T had to cont his studies. Yes we we living apart for 2 and half years before all things went from bad to worst and finalllly we broke up. I balme it on him for having another gal. he blames it on me to be so demanding in life. Anyways there goes my whole dream and whatsoever that comes with it. After alll that I started going on a serious relationship with KJ and its has been 2 years and yes I am 27 and will hit 28 very very very soon. and yes I am no where in getting nearer to getting myself married to him or whatsoever. There is the " my mom doesnt like him part and the we are not financially ready to get married part". So with alllll that I am so so so so so even more lost in life. Yes he promised me that we will get married. But I have learned that things changes as life goes on and promises are meant to be broken sometimes. We cannot promise or control what goes on in our life.
Maybe the only thing that we can do is hope. I on the other hand has given up in hope I guess.
To me right now all I want is to be happy for as long as I can. Whether I willl be someone's wife or not might not be important to me anymore. Coz life's short and who knows.........so why do I even wanna slave myself for things that I know I might not have.
Last month my mom told me that I had to start to focus on my dad's bussiness, I told her I will but I told myself its till they are not around. I am doing this for them not for myself. To me, I dont have anything to live for except my parents and KJ now. They are what is keeping me going every day and night.
Sometimes I think I am a sick..........I guesss when u hope for tooo much and when u falll and lose everything you hope for, its hard getting yourself back on track and live for yourself.

Ships that cannot sink nor float

2010-07-05T16:48:00.002+08:00

I failed badly in my past relationship. cheated, lied to, and deceived. I have been loyal to the X but what I get is just this. He went off got himself a chick and marries. What about those promises he made when we were on a long distance relationship....hmmm. Anyway its over and I have already hopped onto another ship. How's this ship?????

He is nice, treats me well and all u ever wanted in a guy but the down side to it is mom and dad does not like him. Its the race thing. Sigh.

I have seriously ran out of ideas on what to do. I think I am going to leave it as it is till he pushes to get married and then at that time i will have to see what I should do. I know I know it will be very soon but who knows what will happen to me till then i don't wanna commit to anything.
Don't get me wrong here, I am all ready to get married ever since the X said he will marry me no matter what. But I guess its not my time and luck.

Maybe I am meant to not be married. Maybe its better then I don't have to make anyone sad or mourn when I die. And yes its ok to die alone and have no one at your funeral, because you won't even notice it and when you die its a whole new afterlife and I don't know what will happen. So its there a different between dying alone and dying with a whole lot of people in ur funeral.

Don't get me wrong here I do love K very much and wish to be with him day and night but with the whole mom and dad not allowing thing, I am realllly reallllly stressed. I guess either way I will be unhappy. I guess I will know by then what to do.

What will you do in my situation.
Marry K when he is ready?
or not marry him because of your family?

All about June

2010-07-05T16:27:00.002+08:00

June came and gone so fast that I did not even noticed it. June was a pretty big month for me as it was K's birthday. I celebrated his birthday at some steamboat place as he was craving for it. After that every weekend was spend celebrating his birthday with his friends and our friends. Therefore I can say I think I have put on the weight I lost since I started kickboxing a few months ago. Sigh......
Recently I have been thinking quite a lot actually. About life and about my future. I have made a decision to be single for life. I think its easier for me and everyone around me. I am not saying that I am not happy with K. I am very happy but I have family problems that I would say will never allow us to tie the knot. So whether I like it or not.... things are going to stay the same for the rest of my life.
Yes you can say I am selfish or my parents are selfish. Whichever way I think its still my fault in some ways. I don't expect him to wait or anything, he has a life to go on too rite?
The question that people tend to ask me is are u going to be lonely?
I guess i will but do I have a choice my question is. Would you leave your parents and not be there when they are ill and sick and be with someone you love? I reallly don't know the answer.
So I guess I will let things be and enjoy my life. Plus who knows. Life's short especially with cancer being the no one killer nowadays. I am not jinx-ing myself just something to think about sometimes.
So what I do now is aim to lose weight and travel the world when I have someone to go with right now :).

Celebrations adn trips

2010-05-26T11:28:00.004+08:00

Recently I went to bandung with mom and sis. The place is reallly heaven for shopholics like my family. The amount of stuff you could purchase is reallly crazy. I bought zara short for RM 36 only..... and zara working pants RM 36 and shirts from RM 28.....sooo go figure how much I shopped.

That was just day 1, so can u imagine day 3........

Weeeeee.......... and next month which is next week its my darling's birthday *wink * *wink*
He will officially turn .............(sorry he will kill me if i tell)

Its going to be the 20th month

2010-04-26T12:10:00.002+08:00

Its going to be 20 months in a few more days for me and KJ..... Seams like forever but we stilll fight all the time. Sighhhhhhhh.
I really cannot wait till we celebrate our 2 years anniversary.

My Life so far....

2010-04-08T16:40:00.002+08:00

Things has been going reallly well.....hehehehehe. It looks like things are getting better for me. I begin to realize that life is not easy yet it has all the sweetness and bitterness to it. Since the day I started dating Kajen, I realize I am more matured now and its all because of him.. He thought me a lot in life unlike my ex. He is more mature and loves me to bits and pieces. As for me I do love him too and hope that one day my parents and sisters will be able to accept him. he is a far much better guy that T. I am reallly glad to have found him.

I know things will work out between us :)

We have been dining out quite a lot hence me being FAT>>>>> Arghhhhhhh

But still he loves me :) hahahahahahaha

How time flies

2009-11-16T11:43:00.002+08:00

Its been a year since me and Thomas actually broke up. If I were to say that I don't miss him, its not true. We have been together for over 6 years before we call it off. Maybe because we were far away from each other for 3 years plus. Or maybe its just me wanting security in life. Anyhow its all over and K has been in my life ever since we broke off. K has been caring and loving and understanding. Unfortunately my parents does not really approve of this relationship. I really don't know what I should do. Should I just be with him because of my feelings or should I be selfish and think about what I want in life.
Sometimes I feel like I should throw everything away and wishes that time will just fast forward in front of me till I am gone. I now live my life day by day minutes by minutes and seconds by seconds. Whatever that comes by me I will have to face it.
It feels like I let my life crumbled and fall because I wasn't brave enough to make the decision and step up 3 years back. Maybe things will be different then. Maybe I will not be this lost. What are you fighting for in life.........
What are you hoping for in life...........
I just feel lost and insecure..................
There is this hole in my heart that is growing bigger as time pass by.
K told me to be patient and things will be fine.
Maybe he is right. I will just sit here and go on with my life and hopes that one day i will see the light in this dark tunnel that I am in.

Given Up

2009-10-26T15:13:00.002+08:00

I have thought it over and have given up hope in marriage and family. I don't ever think I will be able to get married have kids and also have a happy family like any other girls. I just think that whatever hope I have has been ruined by Thomas Lau Li Hwa. Promises after promises, hopes after hopes. Still he has to be selfish and all. What do I have to say when I have wasted all my youth years waiting for a person. Oh well I guess karma will come to him one day. On the other hand mom doesnt want me to be with KJ because he is of different race. She feels that I won't be happy and all. If mom will go to the extend of disowning me what should I do. Leave my family for KJ or leave KJ for my family. Seriously I don't know what to do. Maybe I should just be alone forever. Anyway I will be too old to know anyone now already. might as well just be alone. My parents wants me to build a career, have my own company one day but I don't see the point as even I were to have a company I don't have anyone to share my happiness and sadness with and what is the point working so hard when at the end of the day when you come home you will still be greeted by an empty house. Who am I to blame........I guess my life is meant to be like this. No matter what I do I am meant to fail in having a family and kids. I reallly do want to get married have kids and also a home. I want to be able to bring life into this world. But probably this is not and never my faith.

Its not that I don't love KJ but just that its going to be impossible to have a family with him. My family won't accept it and how would his family react to all of this when they find out. I really ran out of ideas on what to do. How long is Kj willing to wait. Is he gonna be like Thomas and leave me for another girl in future if I cannot get marry to him. I really have no idea. We will see by then. I know its not fair to you KJ but then I really don't know what to do.

I reallly don't want to go out and look anymore. i don't want to love a person adn to find out my parents are not ok with him. I hate it. i rather not look anymore plus KJ treats me very well and loves me a lot. I just don't know what to do. Hopefully one day things will be clear for me. As for now I just want to be alone. I think maybe my mom wants me to be alone for the rest of my life.
I don't think I can take being alone for the rest of my life. Maybe I will just kill myself before i get old and sick and lonely.

I think I will not ever be that person who is always happy and cheerful anymore. That person is dead. Now I am just going to take one day at a time till the time comes. Therefore since my parents brought me up, paid for my education, my life is theirs and hence I will do whatever they want me to do. So I guess i will try my very best to concentrate on thinking about something to build a company up. As for what I am doing it, its all because of my parents.

Therefore, from today onwards I have to learn to live alone, take care of myself and also but a funeral insurance for myself. In case when I die who is going to settle my funeral. I have decided to not to burried but just cremate and throw my ashes into the sea or some forest so in future since there is not going to be anyone to visit me so I guess leave nothing behind is the best.

So we will see how it goes. As for now just be happy for what I have and be glad that I still have people that loves me.

I am ALIVE !!!!

2009-10-02T11:37:00.002+08:00

Hey there I very very much alive. I havent been blogging lately because

i) I dont know what to write about...its not that nothing is happening to my life its just some
things i cannot blog about due to the sensitivity of the issue.
ii) I have been an emotional pot recently and its alll because of .......... I dont know why oh why..hence cannot concentrate on work and all.
iii) Been travelling a lot due to work

and 10 000 more other stupid reasons.

Recently i have been a super duper emo pot ( as I mentioned) cause I really don't know what to do with my pathetic little life. I have nothing much to look forward to as I see my life just passes by like that.

Maybe because I have lost all hopes after ..... Until today I cannot tell myself there is still hope. The way I see things changed day by day. I am starting to not hope for anything to happen to my life. I am starting to tell myself not to look forward to anything in life. Maybe then one day I will be able to come out of the dark and see the bright light again.

I am not sure what have I done wrong...
Maybe life's unfair and when shits happen u have to live with it and suck it up and continue the journey.

Till I blog next....tata

Losing it

2009-06-19T14:52:00.002+08:00

I think recently I have been tooo emotional and always losing it on little little things. I sometimes think I think tooo much. I think about getting married before I turn 30 but what if it doesnt happen......What should i do, to be honest I reallly don't know. What I know right now is to be happy in whatever I do. I will be off to east coast again next week. Realllly starting to feel old already coz i get tired easily and lethargic easily. realllly age is catching up on me sigh........

Me in June

2009-06-18T11:10:00.004+08:00

I am sooo sorrry I havent updated this blog for a long long time..
So here goes. What happen to me in June.

I recently got a raise from my current work place and it was a good raise despite us facing a bad economy. I was happy but also was pretty upset with my CEO because he is reallly being hard on my department, but its all work right.

Kajen and I are getting along better and better I would say. He understands me and loves me a lot. I am really happy to have him and really hope things will work out. I celebrated his birthday by surprising him in the office with cupcakes. I really could not describe the look on his face when i surprised him. :)

Ok back to work will blog later.......

Melbourne

2009-05-15T11:54:00.002+08:00

Recently darling and I have decided that for a better future we should move to Australia and since I have been studying in Melbourne we decided to move to Melbourne. Besides there are much more oppurtunities for darling to persue his graphics career there. So will just wait till I get my pr which i hope will be soon and we will plan on where to reside and what to do. Luckly one of my friend has a company there and is willing to ask me to work for him. So hopefully by that time the offer will still be valid and things will be much easier for us. Darling promised me that we can have doggies when we are there.. woooo hooooo.

I really can't wait its like a fairy tale to me now.

I love you darling.....muaks

MDG Finals

2009-05-15T11:48:00.002+08:00

Tonite is the night...I am going for the mdg finals in curve. Darling manage to get me the VIP pass so we are going to be there tonite. He he he. I will post some pictures up after tonite. Who do you think will win the MDG season 2.... Will it be Dawn the ever so cheeky and chearful one, or Pinky the so call Ah lian one, or Juanita the garang one. Personally I really wished Dawn will win this as she has the bubbly personality, the looks and the figure. Arghhhhhhh can't wait tilll 7pm .. so whoever is going to be there see you there.

Signing offf.....

The guy that is mad

2009-05-06T15:52:00.002+08:00

Recently i text my ex wanting to talk to him and he called and shouted at me saying he loves his gf a lot a lot and I made her cry and all that shit. I was like WTF is happening I only wanted to ask a question and why are u telling me all this. Is the gf feeling effking insecure ???/ or he still likes me which I dont think soo coz we agreed last year its over but what the effking is wrong with me and appologize to me the next day saying the reason he shouted was cause his gf saw my message and cried. WTF is wrong with the girl.......she is seriously mentally illl man. Excuse me girl you are blardy in MELB and I am in KL 7 and 1/2 hours away by flight that cost RM1500 by air asia. So what are u sooo scared of. Sheesh what on the earth is she thinking and him it must run in their family i guess............Should I be crazy toooo hmmmm what do you think??????

Now Stuck in the airport

2009-04-21T13:46:00.002+08:00

Argh its exactly 1.48pm now and I am in the airport waiting for my flight back to KL. Hopefully this time the flight will be on time. Arghhhhh this is like the 4rd time in a month I came to Bintulu and to tell u guys the truth its not fun. But this time round I had the best fried noodles though. Hmmmmmm Hmmmmm reallly nice
the texture and allll unbelievable. Its some hand made noodles said to be without kan sui. Yum yum man reallly yummy. I could finish the plate so wasted. Wish I could pack it back for darling. He would go crazy over it. But never mind he will be happy to see me back in his arms....hehehehe. Its already 1.53pm and i am still waiting for boarding. But the plane from KL is not here yet so I think the flight is going to be delayed again.......sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I will blog more when I am in KL.........coz no mood and tired

In Bintulu

2009-04-21T11:58:00.002+08:00

I m dead bored here waiting for time to just fly off so I can go back to KL and see my darling. Will blog more about this place when I get back and upload some picies.

The friday I got pretty drunk

2009-04-18T11:37:00.003+08:00

I was really busy like reallly busy from Monday till like now and mind you very stress tooo from a tender submission on Monday. Therefore me being stress and all decided to say yes to the drinking session from my colleagues.

So off I left the office at 6.30 to pick KJ up to join us at Tao in TTDI. Not a bad place I would say for drinks after work and its really after work and i was there to get tipsy. So 5 of us down a bottle of Macallan Whiskey and 5 bottles of beer. After that I really could only remember being happy till I was home and till this morning when i saw a sms from my GM saying that he will be in the office at 10 am to do the costing with me. SIGHhhhhhh why can't that little happiness last a little more longer.

Anyway I am just happy that I spent the night not in the office till 11 pm every night and actually drinking till 11 pm. OK I guess that's all for now and I have to get abck to work and finish off stuff ...........seeee ya

Work work work

2009-04-13T21:17:00.002+08:00

Is currently 9.20 pm and yes I am still in the office. i am taking this time off to blog a bit so that I wont be sleepy. i still have heaps and heaps of work to do and arghhhhhhhh I need to finish it by Thursday. Need to submit the tender on Monday arghhhhh. Oh just to inform all my readers I will be also participating in the Mardigras bazaar happening this Sunday (19/04/09) at Mardigras in One U in conjunction of the wet party. So guys do come and visit me cause we are going to shock you with interesting apparels. Ok I guesss I have to go back to work so I don't have to stay up till 5 in the morning to finish this. Tilll then

Toodles..............

The nuisance

2009-04-13T21:11:00.002+08:00

Recently there is this guy/gal that has been leaving nuisance comment on my blog and he/she named himself/herself as whitepigkiller. I really don't know who this person is cause it is really gila. So dear white pig killer if you don't know me please stop harassing me cause it effiking annoying and I am sure you would have something else better to do. Oh well I guess I cannot stop people from talking but may I know who are you????? Please common don't be a chicken and not tell me who you are as you are really ridiculous to comment stupid things on my blog. Anyway it was fun knowing people do read my blog and thanks white pig killer for even taking the time to comment meaning you really like visiting my blog.

Bits and pieces of april

2009-04-10T16:09:00.004+08:00

Am really in love with Beatrice Looi's design. Will definately get one for my wedding. Weeeeeee....Talking bout clothings tommorow is gonna be the first time i am going to wear a saree out in public. So excited yet a bit nervous. Dont really know how it would be and how would people react. Hmmmmmm am sooo happy though and I can't wait to go to penang for a break. I really think I need a break already from all these site visits and tendering and work. I need to rest my brains.

March and all

2009-04-06T15:22:00.004+08:00

March has come and go...

I have been really busy travelling because of work and at the same time have been busy with my other casual weekend thingy. Things with me and KJ has been going pretty well and will see how things go in future but I can see its getting bright. As for work, I really hope thigns will stay like how it is or a bit more better. As for the B**ch I am glad she will be leaving soon (forced or by free will) I am sooo glad that she will soon be out of my life. I reallly think I will go celebrate with the rest of her company's people and everyone else.

Last weekend KJ,E,JC and me went to pavillion for movies, lunch and a bit of shopping and also booze.....We even bumped into patrick and he joined us for drinks too. We ended up partying more back at my place with JC's friends and ended up pretty drunk.

So tilll i blog next toodles

When you think everything is fine...........

2009-03-24T09:52:00.002+08:00

I really dont understand why some people can be so difficult or rather not understanding. Maybe I am one of them too... Oh well I guess at times like this I am just glad that KJ sticks through thick and thin with me and will always be with me. I love U KJ..... I really hope things will work its way out for me. I know it will. On the other note I will be participating in the earth hour treadzoo event which is happening this weekend at cap square. So everyone please support me and my friends and come down to cap square and see what we have for you. We will be selling used clothings, bags and etc. So everyone come down and support us...

Melaka

2009-03-10T16:08:00.004+08:00

Off we went to Melaka yesterday for food.........We left KL at 10 after my darling arrived and had breaky at my place. Then we went to pick up E and off we went to Melaka. The weather was good as it was cloudy so by the time we reached Melaka it was 11.30am and we got our cars parked and then off we went to stop no 1.......

Yes its the chicken rice ball after the bridge..... then after half a chicken for 4 person and drinks we headed for ice kacang at jonkers street....... but we fail to take pictures of the food as we were too busy eating. Then I wanted to go for the cendol but darling did not want it so we missed out on the cendol but we had ice kacang, mixed fishball, laksa ordered by sis and guava plum juice. then with a full stomach and with the rain starting to pour we went to Dataran Pahlawan mall for shelter and to walk around. We decided to go for a movie while allowing our stomach to settle down the food we ate. Darling and I decided to watch Marley and me and sis and esther decided to sing karaoke. After our movies we went shopping while waiting for sis and esther to finish their karaoke session. Shopping it was for me as I bought nike stuff that were on discount, my kereatase shampoo and shoes. After all that we were hungry so off we went to have bbq pork rice located right opposite capitol satay celup. After that we drove around Melaka looking for my cendol and there wasnt any to be found so we settled for Melaka's famous O chien introduced by sis's friend. After all that food we headed back to KL and reached home at 11 pm. I really pity my darling coz he drove all the way and he is feeling really tired and exhausted today sighhh..... guess I will ahve to sayang sayang him today. I love you darling......muaks

B**CH

2009-02-26T15:22:00.002+08:00

Yes I mean it. Why does this particular gal keeps talking to people around her about me. Just because I dated her friend. Its not like she doesnt have a bf she has. Then why is she jealous, I can only think of one reason thats cause she wants the guy. If it is not then why be jealous???? really dont understand and the best part is it has already been 6 months since we talked to each other and yet she acts like a total B**CH. Who she thinks she is a princess, why does she have to bad mouth about me. Is she jealous cause she has been jealous about the things I do and have before but why? JUst weird so if the B**CH reads this stop bad mouthing about me or anyone. No wonder she don't dare to even look me in the eye....I know it must be the guilt that she have in her heart. Really if you have nothing else to do please go get married and have children then you will be busy. Just dont understand you are older than me but yet loves to talk bad about me to others. I really hope that B**CH reads this and if u are not a pussy come confront me and tell me straight in my face. But knowing her big mouth she will go tell her friends that are friends with me too about me and bla bla bla bla.

Anyway I really have never met this kind of people before in my life ......

Things That i do to make life complicated

2009-02-26T14:43:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I really think I complicate things a lot but sometimes I meant good. I think KJ is right. I think way to much for my brain to digest. The thing is if I dont think....arghhh ok lets not get to why I think to much. Friends are meant to be there for you when you need them not when they need you only. I feel that people are more protected when they are with families but when they are in a foreign country they tend to trust and count on friends more, but I guess cause they dont have anyone else. I always have problem with friends back here. I really dont understand why. Maybe I am tooo naive and dumb and people here in KL too smart for me. I reallly complicate things for me I think I reallly over do a lot of things and this really sometimes spoils everything. Oh well whatever it is I still have KJ here to love and protect me no matter what. I really am hurt when T betrayed my trust and told me that he will be back for me but he never did. I for that really hates him. I think a guy should never lie to their other half. Maybe T thinks I am not good enough for him but it doesnt matter anymore coz KJ will always appreciate me and love me. I believe he will try his best to make it there for us. I know my parents will be against it but KJ you will prove them wrong I know. I know u will love and care for me and make me the happiest woman on earth.

Saree

2009-02-19T17:22:00.002+08:00

I cannot wait tilll tonite I am going to get my cloth for my saree. Then to the tailor it shall be......wooo hoooo will show u how it looks like..

Till then I hope time will just fly by.

Last night.......

2009-02-19T17:14:00.002+08:00

Things with me and him have been going really well till recently when reality hits us no wait just me that I wanna have a family before I turn 30 but really if it is gonna happen between me and him or its just a fairy tale. In any case I really dont wanna think about it anymore......just being with him and around him makes me happy. I love his company his laughter the way he shows his love for me. Its just really sweet. With him I don't have to give a lot to receive all this. Last nite I have made up my mind to just try our best to make things workout for us no matter what. Like they say IF ITS MEANT TO BE ITS MEANT TO BE .........

LOVE IS BLIND until reality hits.....but there is always a solution to everything rite

I guess all I can do is just hope and I guess hope and faith is the thing that makes tommorow better.

Till then.....I will just believe.

Not Getting Young Anymore

2009-02-17T10:34:00.003+08:00

As the title says I am old already. Most people my age would have been getting married or married but me still having fun dilly dallying about what's going to happen to my life. Maybe I am not ready for marriage but oh well not everyone is at my age. I think I really need to buck up and work harder and earn my first million at the age of 30. Ha ha ha ha like that's gonna happen but you know what they say its good to have dreams. But this dream is a ridiculous dream how can you dream of dreams that will not come true. So now I have to work hard and chase that dream hahahahahahahaha.....
Till then guy may all your dreams come true

Delayed CNY post

2009-02-13T10:46:00.009+08:00

HAPPY CNY

Ermmm reallly belated post......Really this year's CNY is not much of a different than any other years.

The first day of CNY as the normal tradition we wished our parents Gong Hei Fatt Choy and good wealth for the year and they will give each of us an angpau. After that we have our breakfast and then just rest at home while waiting for my aunts and uncles to arrive in the afternoon to have to have dinner at our house.

as u can see all of us were in red and what is CNY without cookies ........

Then came dinner time and this is what we had....

Then on the 15th day of CNY I was suppose to treat the family to a restaurant dinner and when I say family I mean FAMILY............

that includes the cousins toooo.........

Anyway I had a goood CNY this year.....I wished all my readers out there GONG XI FA CHAI may you all have a wealthy and healthy year...

Tour de langkawi

2009-02-13T10:10:00.005+08:00

This morning I woke up and left the house a bit earlier than usual thinking to be in the office early. I left the house at 8am and by the time i was at the highway heading to lebuhraya mahameru I was already stuck in a crawl. Arghhhhhhhhh then i heard the radio saying that the road will be close due to the tour de langkawi event. I was like arghhh why la they did not inform us earlier like put in on the papers few days earlier or something. Dammm I will be sooo stuck in the LDP jam. and I can't turn out coz I am already stuck here. The roads will be close from 8.30 till 9.30 am..... who the hell closes the road for so long and also on a friday and also during peak times. Arghhhhhhh.....

The best part is when I reached the exit to LDP from Penchala Link i was stuck in a stand still jam and the best part is everyone was out of the car. Dammmm the roads just closed. so me being me zI got off the car and took some pictures.

This was taken on the penchala link exit to ldp. Seee.....

Then the royal crowd arrives on their bikes.........

10 min after that the roads were reopen. As soon as i arrived at work all my other colleagues were complaining about the bad jam this morning. So at least I am not the only one.

CNY eve

2009-01-29T16:27:00.002+08:00

This year's CNY preparation started 2 days before CNY eve. On friday I was home early cause our office gave us half day off. As soon as I came home I showered then went to sleep for a while. Later in the evening I started frying crackers for CNY. I was literally frying from 6 pm till 11 pm. Then came sat which is the day before the Reunion dinner. Sadly to say mom woke me up at 8 am to go marketing with her and run errands with her. By the time I got home it was 12 noon already. I then quickly rushed out to meet KJ coz I will not be seeing him for the next few days. Then I got home at 3 pm and started frying chips for CNY while my youngest sis made cookies. We finished everything at 11 pm. Then I went to bed straight away till sunday where I had to wake up at 6.30 to pick my sisters up from LCCT. As soon as we got home, mom was already asking us to have breakfast as we needed to go to our grandma's house to do the cny prayers. By the time we got home from that it was already 1 in the afternoon and mom was busy cooking for the reunion dinner. I then brought my sisters to bangsar for treading as they wanted to do it before cny. When I got home mom wanted me to help her cook, so I was helping mom cook till 7 pm and then i quickly shower after that and went straight to the table for the dinner. After dinner we rest a while before we mopped the flour as in chinese tradition we are not allowed to clean the house on the first day of CNY so mom wants us to clean the floor and make sure that it was sparkling clean. After cleaning we had to do the CNY eve prayers and then we all went to bed as we were really tired.
Did not take any pictures of the dishes as I totally forgotten about it. But its ok I have pictures of what we had for the first day of CNY....

Nothing to do

2009-01-16T19:13:00.002+08:00

I am stuck in KJ's office cause he has last minute changes to be done but luckly i have my computer with me so i can go online. This laptop is bullying me i cannot log on to msn sooo sad arghhhh. But its ok I have already requested one so I will be able to get my new lap top soon. Anyways am still waiting for him to finish sooo bored. I was thinking maybe I should blog about what I have to do this weekend. First up pn saturday I have to change my sis's air asia ticket then attend a wedding then head down to Kuala Selangor for dinner and to get prawn crackers for CNY. AFter all that I will need to be home by 9 plus to go with my mom to KLIA to pick up our shipment from Melb that my sis shipped last week. So thats sat. Then sun I have my company's annual dinner at KL tower. So I have to get my camera charged for pics cause the theme of this dinner is Glamourous. So will see who will be miss glam and mr glam.
So wishing KJ will finish sooon. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH never mind at least I with him.

When you found love

2009-01-15T15:03:00.002+08:00

There is this time in life where I thought I will be with my ex forever as I have never thought that he would have left me in KL all alone for 3 years till I said to myself enough is enough where I ended all my misery. I always thought that if you treat the guy well he will do the same to you and will want to be by your side and protect you. Maybe I was wrong or maybe that was just a fairy tale thinking. Now after being left alone and all I have finally be happy for once and found someone that will no matter what care for me love me and able to tell me everything is going to be fine coz he will be here for me. This time my relationship is very different, I know he might be indian but does it matter? I think what matters most is the guy has to love and care for me and treat me like a princess. KJ can give me all that and more. So what more do I wanna ask for?? I guess I am satisfied and happy already...............Love u KJ

Langkawi

2009-01-15T14:07:00.002+08:00

Right after I got back from Melbourne I was off to another holiday with KJ and B. This time it was Langkawi. We were there from the 30th till new years day. We had heaps of fun and for the first time in my life I was surprised. KJ gave me a ring to seal the deal. Oh yes the deal was sealed when the fireworks was on. It was the most romantic and nicest gift ever. It was funny how i just ended a relationship a few days ago and started on another one soon after that, but I know he has had feelings for me already. Just that its not fair for me to start on one when the other one is not over yet. But the kekokness when he actually told me he has something for me..I was surprised and kinda shy in a way coz no one has ever given me a ring without me choosing it. Anyway back to the trip, as soon as we arrived we bought a bottle of vodka at the airport then rented a car and went to the hotel. Right after we checked in we went out for beers and pizza at debbie's bar right opp our hotel. Later at nite we went back to the hotel and played some card games. too bad my darling Kj dont really know how to play so its me and B. The rule whoever lose drink up. So at the end of the nite ben lost and was drunk. On the next day we went to kuah town and also to tanjung rhu beach. Sadly enough we did not take any pics but we had a lot and i mean a lot of food. Then at nite we just went to some pizza shop near our hotel before going to the beach for the count down. We were amazed as the food was fantastic and i mean fantastic. I had the best carbonara ever. Its sooo creamy and so nice that 3 of us had 2 servings of carbonara marinara and a large pizza garlic and cheese bread. The best part to this meal is we only paid RM80 including drinks. Then was the fireworks at pantai cenang and also the surpise my dalring gave me. After that was out normal card playing session which made ben drunk again. After that we called it a nite. The last and final day in Langkawi was spend on cenang beach and driving around Langkawi. We even did the seven wells and trust me its not recomended for those who are unfit. As we wave goodbye to langkawi we were telling ourselves that we are going to be back for more drinks and food.

Melbourne Holidayz

2009-01-15T11:59:00.005+08:00

Was sooo busy that I could only blog now.....

My holiday started in Melbourne from the 18th dec till the 28th dec. I had a great time there though I did not eat a lot or shop a lot but at least I have finally ended something and officially able to say its over. I am not being mean or anything but its not fair to me plus I can't keep that special someone waiting for me for month and month for an answer rite.. Hence when I was in Melbourne I have officially ended my relationship with T face to face and we both understand that its over. Thats one part of the trip, besides that this trip has also brought me closer to my family it has been a long long time since my whole family has actually gone for a family trip together. Before that its always my mom or my dad cannot make it. So this time we had fun fun fun.... here are some pics.....

As you can see we went to the great ocean road cherry picking and the drive around scenic tour. After all this it was actually christmas and christmas in Australia is not fun cause all the shops are closed. The only thing that is open will be the restaurants in China town, hence I arranged to meet up with my ex high school mates that are currently residing in Autralia. It was quite an awkward dinner but it was actually quite nice to find our whats everyone up to and hows everyone doing. We have changed so much that you could not imagine what we have become and changed since in high school. Then it was boxing day my favourite day of the year when I was in melbourne coz everything here is cheap and prices are really slashed. On boxing day my 2nd, 3rd, and fourth sis actually went crazy like me and got up at 5 am and rushed to Myers coz and did some early morning shopping. We shopped till 7 at myers then we went for breakfast at Hungry Jacks and continue shopping till 10 where I met up with my fren suzy. Then mom and my 5th sis came and we cont shopping at docklands where LEVIs jeans were 50% off. Then my sisters were all tired and drained so they decided to head home and catch a nap. Mom was like wanna go to collins st and see gucci and prada and LV...then mom and I went to collins st only to find out the line into Gucci was like nearly a 2 hours wait. I told mom to forget about it. We went to Polo and the line to pay was freaking long too. Arghhhh looks like we have to line up to go into every shop on collins st. Finally mom gave up and we just headed to Melbourne Central. After all this I was sooo freaking tired my legs were like refusing to walk and my body is like a zombie. I later went and have dinner with T and finally said my goodbyes to him. Got home at 11 ish shower and fell on bed and ony got up at 10 ish the next day. Then came the day I have to leave back to KL suzy was nice enough to drop me at the airport. I really miss her and everything in Melbourne. I know i will be back soon but this time I hope KJ will be able to join me......

New online boutique blog.....

2008-11-19T10:50:00.003+08:00

Dear friends my new online boutique blog is finally up...... So please if you guys are looking to buy any dresses for any occasion or even looking for that perfect summer dress please do visit femmedrobe.blogspot.com. Dont worry people in KL and PJ we do cash on hand delivery so you don't have to pay for delivery.

Am in kerteh and bored......

2008-11-11T18:43:00.002+08:00

This is the most boring outstation trip i been too soo far. Arghhhhhh....
Will upload some pic once i am back in KL as i have stupidly left my cable at home.
Anyway I just came to this town yesterday and last nite I was bored already. The worst part to this is I must be a sooo forgetful that I left my toiletries in my gym bag. Stupid me !!!!
So now I am in the hotel and have to use the hotels soap which is ok I guesss but I am sooo used to my Keratease and my body shop shower gel.....:( I know even KJ say I am a princess but but but.........

My new hobby

2008-11-04T11:24:00.003+08:00

I have a new hobby that is buying clothings from china and korea and selling them online. So gals I have a new online selling blog coming up real soon so be sure to read my blog somewhere in mid of nov. Because our clothings are handpicked and flew from overseas we only have a few pieces so you gals can not only look fabulous but also can be extra special. So I will be updating the pics of the clothings very very soon......

Moms

2008-11-04T11:16:00.004+08:00

I have been having problems with mom lately, i guess she is feeling insecured and all. However I have to admit I have not been a good daughter recently. Havent been accompanying her and all that because she always have reasons to tell me whatever I am doing is wrong. Its always like that I dont even know why she cannot trust and like put some faith in me. I have not done anything wrong to make her look like she has done a bad job as a mom. Oh well I guess I really have to spend more time with her. But I am scared she wont accept the things I do I am scared.....
Life is short and you only have one mom and you better cherish it while she is still here. Thats what everyone will tell you. But what if they are trying to make ur life hell what should you do?
I really hope I can one day tell my mom everything and hope she understands. Not everyone has to think like their moms but I wished she understands me and where I am coming from.
I wish things will take a sharp turn from now on.

Shop-a-holic

2008-10-24T12:32:00.001+08:00

OMG I m just waiting for kj to finish and I can go shopping at the warehouse sales near his office....... arghhhhh can't wait......quick KJ quick finish ur work and lets go shopping.........hands itchy legs itchy liau. Lets just crosss our fingers that the same is gonna be as good as the last time where is spend a whopping 400 over ringgit and got like 10 items.......waiting tick tock t i c k
t o c k t i c k y t i c k t o c k..............

Wedding Invitation Cards

2008-10-22T10:41:00.004+08:00

Last night we receievd a wedding invitation from our aunt in Singapore for her daugther's wedding. When mom opened the card.... she went wah where got people wedding card peach colour must be red ma. I am like mummy now modern ma. Then she goes must be red I dont care next time when my daugther's wedding their wedding invitation card must be red....

I am like huh she think we getting married soon ar somemore not like there is anyone that wanna marry any of their daughthers.....

The above is an indian wedding invitation card .....u see red colour.....

The below is a chinese one... u see pink in colour also

What do you do when your family does not have a son....

2008-10-21T10:32:00.002+08:00

I remember this year's cny mom was telling us that no matter what when we are married we have to come home for cny eve dinner. Then I am like how unless when I am married to a guy and he has no parents or he does not celebrate it. So the conversation went lke this.....

Mom : you all have to come back and have dinner with mummy and daddy after ur dinner there..
Me : but then it will be 9 or 10......
Mom : ( went quiet...........)
Me : If not like that la you do it afternoon.
Mom : haiyaaa see hyow la when the time comes.
Thats how the conversation ended.....

And then out of th blue dunno what happen last nite the topic started again......

Me : Mummy I got an idea how i can come back for cny eve dinner and do all the chinese tradition. I marry a non chinese lor then I can come back anytime for all chinese occassion and the best part is he can come along too. Isnt that good. i find a buddhist guy then its ok rite. Maybe can cari mat salleh also.
Mom : Ermmmmmmm but if u cari mat salleh what if he takes u away from the country.
Me : Then I go for indians and sikh la.
Mom : Indian you have to look for the modern one that don't use bunga melur as their perfume.
Me : ermmmmmmm see la...............
Mom : went silent
Me : thinking (* I think she knows I am right*) hahahahahaahahahahaha.

OK so AI think I have to either look for a guy that doesnt have parents or a modern indian guy or dont get married......hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

What a month...

2008-10-05T22:42:00.004+08:00

Recently so many things have been happening. Dad's and mae's birthday was celebrated at

El-Cerdo this german/ spanish restaurant introduced by Caroline . The place is not bad and the food is actually good except the fact that its all porky pork....

This month was like a really busy and also a month where I spend so much and not noticing it. I know its bad but really time just flies when you are having fun. Life has been treating me quite well besides the point that I over spend this month and I have a holiday to splurge at the end of the year. So come on save save save........

This month I have learnt that relationships and falling in love does not involve only me.... it has to come from the other half. If he doesnt want to rough it out with you there is no point that you stick with it. He has to know what to do and sacrifices to make when the time is right. I know sometimes people will not know what they have lost until they lose it. Life is jujst never fair........

Relationships

2008-09-19T14:52:00.005+08:00

RELATIONSHIPS
I have totally given up in relationships. What are relationships for when you dont enjoy it. I rather have partners and just be happy with. Just someone that will be there for me when I am sad and that will be there for me when I am happy to share all my feelings and also allow me to care for him too. I think its really hard to find someone that you love and loved you back. Its hard to find someone that will be able to take care of you and not only just financially but mentally. Nowadays its really hard to get guys that can do these. I am not asking the person to be a certain race or a certain standard in life. All I ask for is not a lot. I really think sometimes when people say that T really loves me and all...... but he left me to be all alone for so many years. How do I feel?????
Things are just gonna be different....in relationships everyone has to sacrifice or put a foot out. We have to be able to accept our partners flaws and learn to love them for who we are. What have I got after all these years.........
Sigh.................

Holidays.......

2008-09-19T14:52:00.002+08:00

Weeeee I will be in Melbourne from the 18th till the 28th of Dec.........This means a lot of shopping I can do on Boxing Day...... also a lot of parties to go to. Thinking of it just makes me sooo happy now. I really hope KJ gets well soon. So bee, sozee darling, chi get everyone and lets go clubbing and shopping. I sooo wanna shop will I drop drop drop on boxing day and eat eat eat. This means I reallly need to go on a diet now. I know u wont let me stop eating. I wont I will try to workout more. He he he I dont wanna make you unhappy. After the Melbourne trip I will be going to Langkawi with the boys and we are going to drink till we drop hahahahahahahahahahaha.

So in Dec I will shop til I drop and drink til I drop. This means I have to detox detox and detox in Jan. Oh well I guess its worth it. Anyway will be going to Kristy's full moon party tommorow so I will update you guys soon.

The wake up calll

2008-09-02T17:12:00.001+08:00

Have finallly figured out what I want and don't want to dwell into it that much. What ever it is its not my lost and sometimes things that don't belong to you will never belong to you. Just accept the fact and live with it. That's what I am doing now. Just striving for what is mine and will try to keep it mine.

Hurt.........

2008-08-24T20:24:00.002+08:00

What do you do when you are sooo adly hurt and you can never ever do anything cause whatever you do is just not going to make anything work. I really need someone now to support me to accompany me but I cannot tell anyone what I am going through. I really cannot stand up. i really cannot even move or I dont know where and how to move. What should I do????

What would you do when you are lost and confused. When you can only work when someone tells you to and go when someone pushes you. What should I do......

I really cannot go on being like that being soooo useless being so f*** up and all I can do is sit and cry and wishes that you never ever had even a tiny bit of feelings for this person. I am so sad that T is never around for me and I have been in a lot of emotional turmoil because he left me here nearly 3 years ago promising that he will return for me but he never did and never thought of it. Maybe he is never the guy for me. Who am I kidding. Yes they say love is really complex because you sacrifice everything for it. However have we ever thought are we getting something out of this sacrifice we make. Have we ever thought that if the person never will sacrifice for you and all he does is take from you.

When you know about it its too late already cause everything has been taken from you and all is left for you to pick up your life is just an empty shell with all you can try to fill in but it will never ever work cause it will not be the same anymore.

I am feeling empty, lost, clueless and pain.............

How long must this last for me. I dont want to celebrate my 25th birthday all alone again, not this year again. T promises that he will come back for my birthday and we will celebrate christmas and new year's together but I guesss this is all just a dream which will never come true because he doesnt want to come back. I guess I have to accpet the fact that life's never fair to you........... so learn to live with it as much as you can before it gets worst i guess..

Is it Love or Like

2008-08-23T10:12:00.002+08:00

I am confused coz after making things clear with D that we are only friends I came to realize that I think I kinda love him. I know I cannot love him, he has other gals out there and I dont want to be with a guy that has so many other gals and only come to you when he has finish all his stuff with the other gal. I dont want him to use me or to think I am a good contact source. I can't but knowing I dont have anyone to support me I don't know how much longer I can take it. I am not sure if he likes me but what I am sure is he is not in love with me at least I know he does not love me as much as I love him. What should I do. I don't want to fall in love for him. I hope this feeling will be just temporary cause I really cannot take it anymore. I am all alone and no one understands me. I was left alone once like that by T and until today I am still scared that guys will treat me like how T treated me. I dont want the guy to leave me all alone to fend for myself, I do get lonely and friends cannot do what lovers do. I dont want to fall for another guy that will leave me all alone to fend for myself anymore, though they might think I am strong and independent but hey which gay doesn't want to be treated well and pampered. Is it so hard for me to get a guy that will be by myside and also love me more than any other gals. Come to think about it, at the end of the day who will be there for them.....................

Just hard.....

At the moment I am hungry and tired can someone tell me what to eat please??

Tired, stress, confussed and uncertain..

2008-08-20T14:06:00.002+08:00

Last night was the day that I feel soo sooo tired that I just went home after work at 5 and just fall flat on my bed and sleep. Yes without dinner and shower. I was so tired that I could not even lift my self to shower. That was how tired I was. When I woke up at 10.30pm..... as normal there is no more food left for me so I have to just go hungry till this morning. Sighhhhh.... but I woke up and had my shower and stilll feel tired. Therefore after talking to D for a while I went to bed. Oh me and D we are just friends now.... there is nothing going on between us just to make things clear. Just cannot take it that if I were to be his gf I am not that important to him. The gal that is most important to him is always her. So therefore I guesss I will have to move on and get my life back. I dont want to dwell in it anymore. There are many other guys out there for me. I am sure there will be one that will treat me and put me in their priority list. I really hope I know what I am doing right now I hope I am right and I hope the decision I made is right. I will not deny that he treats me well too but not as well as I could call him a bf but well enough for me to say that he can be a very goood friends.

Recently I have became soo stress with my work, my other job which I am trying to try out, and also me wanting to change to other companies. I want to be able to earn more. I am 25 and I cannot be earning what I am earning now. I dont want to depend on my family anymore I want to be able to give them back. See what I mean I am stresss........what to do to take my stresss away???? Anyone wants to go for ice cream or deserts... but I dont know where to have deserts.... any suggestions????

The day when friends become enemies

2008-08-18T09:28:00.002+08:00

I was recently in a cat fight with a gal fren of mine coz she started backstabing me in front of everyone about my private life and I just had to put a stop it. So I just told her off and she did not admit. I dont understand why must she be jealous of what I have when the life she has is what she has choosen. I just really hope that she realises this. Its not that I am mad at her I just have enough of all the rumours and things thta people say which some parts of it are not true. I don't hold any grudge on her coz to me is I am not happy I tell you off I hope you just appologize and we can still be friends. You see the fact that frens do argue and do have dissatisfaction on each other to a certain extend and to me is after that we appologize and we should be frens back. I am not sure how she takes it because I realize that most of her friends that had fights with her doesnt really talk to her. Why ........

How much is enough.

2008-08-06T10:40:00.003+08:00

How much is enough ??????

Yes I meant by money how much money you need is enough for one.....

Besides that how much can one take is enough from life, relationship and work.

Is there a limit or a bottom line if yes then what is it for D...and me??

Relationships..........

2008-08-06T10:13:00.002+08:00

You see the fact that I am not very picky on my other half I just want him to be better than me, I have a philosophy that I will only get marry to a guy that can support me, that has a bright future ahead and also a good person. I dont ask for a good looking guy or someone who is super rich. All I dont want is a guy that doesnt have a job and cannot even treat me as a lady and the most important thing if we do happen to spend the rest of our life together I hope he is able to support the family. Yet this is really hard to look for and I dont really understand why. The thing is everytime i am in a relationship and he started to treat me cold it makes me think that I am not good enuf for him or maybe I am not the person he wants. Sometimes like now I really try my very best to be there for him when he needs me and when he is at his lowest point but what if he does not want it. Does that mean that I am not a good gf or does that mean that I cannot help him feel better? Do I have to be in his business in order to help him share the burden?

Some people might think love is everything in a relationship... but have you ever thought, can love put food on your table and get u shinning gifts? I am sure some gals are dating because of love and feelings, but have they every thought that can their partner provide for them. If they say they dont need that they can live with what they have... then why do you still get jealous when you see people getting gifts and romantic dinner and getaway from their boy friend. The fact that we gals would like to be spoiled by our love ones. So do I.

So sometimes dont say things like I dont need this and that because we do to a certain extend.

Back from a whole lot of travelling....

2008-07-31T09:56:00.003+08:00

I have been away since last friday... I went to Pangkor for our team building activity from our company. It was a whole lot of fun.... I had my first try on paintball. It was great and I loved it soooo sooooo much. Then after that I came back and went for a Batman movie with D, KJ, S, and B. Then on sunday we had a bbq at D's place. It was great though the crowd is small. I really enjoyed it. On monday it was really really hectic as I have to attend a meeting in HQ at 10 am and then drive up to Kerteh... for those who doesn't know where Kerteh is... its actually in between Kuala Terengganu and Kemaman. I had to go into site the whole day on tuesday hence I got myself sun burned...just a little only not going to complain much. The thing I am going to compain is my thumb, its all swollen and i cannot bend or straighten it and it hurts. I think I hurt it while helping the guy cut the cable ties as the cutter I was using was not sharp enough. Therefore I am in pain........

WALL E

2008-07-31T09:48:00.003+08:00

WALL•E
Since I cannot watch the trailer You DOn't Mess With Zohan I really wanna watch Wall E. Plus I really wanted to watched this movie for a very very very very long time. Ok not that long just since the preview is out. Its cute........when wall e wanna hold hands.... How nice if falling in olove and being by each other is like 123......For more info on Wall•E, click here;

Synopsis: In the distant future, a small waste collecting robot inadvertently embarks on a space journey that will ultimately decide the fate of mankind.

The X factor

2008-07-23T15:48:00.002+08:00

What do u do when the X becomes active in your life. You were sooo happpy and sweet and all...... you were all over each other and then suddenly the X came........ He start to think, starts to pity her. So then u think about it whether u are better than the other gal. Then u have bitch fights in ur brain....... all the drama goes on and on. The fact that u get jealous is because when he works with his ex and sees his ex everyday. He takes her to and from work and spend most of his time in the office with him. For a fact u know that he might not have feeling for her or he might treat her as a sister since she is all alone. Then when u are thinking in a bitchy way u see that she is having him. Then he will tell u the whole story about him not having feelings for her and bla bla bla...but when she said she still likes him the whole story changed. The new gal has to suffer and bare the consequences as she choose to be in the relationship at the wrong time. Some how she just started to get to know him better and having fun and sharing the same interest and then the X has to drop the bomb and says she likes him all the while. But why now why not then.........

We were just getting to know each other better and learn to understand each others needs......

What should I do when he stops to think of her.....

Should I leave or should I stay.......
My heart tells me to stay as it is worth it because when u really enjoy and love that someone u will want to be able to cherish every second and minute you have with him. No matter if it will only last just a day....... thats heart talk.

As for reality wise he should just choose and learn to face the music and for me I should think twice of this man rite.... since he stop and hessitate between the new gal and the X.

I realize one thing in life is where you have missed the oppurtunity to love and to have someone, you might not have a chance to be with that someone again. I guess its the same for everything in life. You cannot regret or cry or try to grab the chance back. Coz when the time is over it is over. If you have had a second chance make sure the mistake is not being repeated again and make sure it is being cherish. Chances and Oppurtunity does not have take two in lifes.

To everyone that is reading this please understand that when the oppurtunity is set and given to you right in front of your face and you just let it go. Then you will have to wait for another chance.

Bored......

2008-07-23T14:59:00.005+08:00

Was really bored coz i was stuck in the car coz it was jammed last week so this is what I did

Yes !!!!! another camwhoring session. I am getting sooo sooo goood at this man.....

Anyhow.... I really don't know what to update....

Another month......

2008-07-18T14:47:00.002+08:00

I recently met D and things just went its path. The only biggest problem is when I jump into this relationship there is no turning back anymore. That's what I am afraid. How do you know if you have mnade the right choice. How you know he will still continue loving you after all this. Just being with him makes me happy. I love the time he spent with me and all the things he said and taught me. I really know I am in love with him but how do I get into this relationship knowing that you will lose ur identity....... Help....

KLue Urbanscapes

2008-06-29T11:44:00.002+08:00

Firstly I wanna thank you Jane for giving me the tix which she got from Venus. I was there late as I had to bring my car to service therefore was finding it really difficult to get a parking. I had to park on top of a hill, luckly I took the X trail. Hehehehehehehehe. Was actually there around 5 to see OAG perform but unfortunately they could not make it in time and the organizers had to cancel them :(...... Jane was a bit sad coz she ca't see her fluffy. Anyway since there weren't perfoming we went to the stalls that sells clothings food and accessories. I manage to buy a dress and am really interested in a few more dresses and tops offered by other stalls. Unfortunately I can't really spend that much as I am literally kinda broke and had to save up for my bangkok trip. But its ok as I now know where I can get cute stufff when I am not that broke. Oooo about the Bangkok trip I will be going with Jane and we will be buying back stuff so we can sell them if anyone is interested we still have stuff from Bangkok that me and Jane bought last month and also stuff that I got from Melb. So if anyone's interested feel free to drop me a message and you guys are more than welcome to view the items. I will post the pics from Urban scapes after getting them from Jane. Then after the event we went to makan with K, R, P and B at Bangsar's all famous banana leaf rice and after that we went for deserts at delicious... yummmmmmm
The berrylicious Choccolate Pavlova is still sooo sooo nice. Hmmmmm I guess thats all for now.

Updates for May and June

2008-06-29T11:35:00.003+08:00

Since the last time I have blogged many things has been happening to my life. I had a confusing may as he came back and we kinda hooked up to see if there are anymore sparks in between us. Unfortunately there isn't . Oh well I guess i actually gaved it a go and it turns out that we are both living in a lie. Anyway we never know what will happen in future right.
Now besides the relationship thing recently I met Mr T and I really think he is a funny and interesting guy. Hmmmmm interesting is not the word to put it. Maybe I would say he is a fun guy. Too bad he is always not free to spend time with any of his friends. Anyway I guess as they say there is no perfect person in this world. Anyway we will see what happens, I will just let it be for now. Besides that I guess nothing much has happen to my life besides the normal shopping and facebooking. I will try to blog more often.

Li lin's wedding

2008-05-09T15:51:00.007+08:00

This post was suppose to be posted long long long time ago but you I am only free today. So here are some pics first...

Her wedding was held in Nikko hotel on the 22nd March..... (see now u know why i said long long long time )

The flowers were all champagne and pink roses... so romantic.

Thats me with the bride ..... before the whole things. Look how happy she is. Wishing u all the best in future in Sydney.

Me with the bride and bridegroom right after the wedding. I will miss all the time we spend together. Muaks.

Shopping adventures.

2008-05-09T15:17:00.003+08:00

Omg so many post in a afternoon. This post is about how crazy is my shopping habits. Just last week KL have a few warehouse sale. SO me as a crazy shopper will definately be there. So I was at the Zara, Ted Baker and Massimo Dutti sale on the 1st of May and I went crzy where I spend around RM400 and then at the FJ benjamin sale another amount..... sigh. What a big spender I am this month. But oh well shall not buy anymore this month and next month and next next month. Shall vow to be a good gal and go to gym hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

But hey you know what when I was in the warehouse sale every gal was buying as crzy as me some evern crazier till the extend I think Rm2000 I think. See I am not that bad afterall.
Like that makes me feel better. hehehehehehe.

Life in the other end.

2008-05-09T15:13:00.002+08:00

Recently I have blog about staying in the office and how bored it was. Now since March I have actually transfered to the sales department and since then I have been travelling non stop. Just in April I was in Kerteh (somewhere in the East coast) for at least 10 days. that is 1/2 a month of the normal working days u have. It was actually fun to see the other part of the world. To see what it meant to be a sales person actually. Anyway I will see how long I would last in this job and hope that I will still cont to enjoy it even after 10 years. Finger crosss.

The future....

2008-03-28T13:55:00.002+08:00

This post is dedicated to T. I know and understand that there is a future for us. Someone once told me that whatever has been done cannot be regreted. In this world there is no such thing as turning back as we cannot look back and regret but only can think of the future. I know you will try your very best to provide me and I know I will be the happiest women on earth. Its just that at this very moment you are away from me for 2 years and i really dont know how long I have to wait for u to come back and be beside me. I really don't know why I still say yes to waiting for you. I know your family will treat me well and good. I will try my very best to wait and keep my promises to you.

The Ups and Downs of Life

2008-03-18T11:01:00.003+08:00

Recently my emotions has been really unstable. I really feel like sometimes people don't really think before they speak. i mean come on you are blardy turning into the age of a mother soon. Why can't you even think before you speak. I know you were unhappy in the past but what's wrong with you. I am really going mental because of this. And to that whoever that will be reading this you know urself yes LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP DO SUCKS BIG TIME. Try to think when u were alone who actually tried to be there for you and now what happen to me a piece of trash trown a side. Its alright you will soon get your time and you will know how it feels to be like that. To T i know you really love me and want me but think about it its really though waiting and I really feel really tired at times. I am sooo lost at times and you cannot even be there for me. I know you have to have a life there but then what about me. Sighhhhhhhh.

I really need to know what to do sometimes. Yes I know he gives me diamonds, flowers, chocolates, candies and even a lovely card. Yes I do feel touch by all this but I still need you to be by my side. I know I am childish by offending you, but have you ever thought how she offended me. Made me feel like shit and make me think that I am worthless. After that night's argument things have change and I know it will never be the same again. I can feel it. However, damage has been done. Like what she said to me its still hurts sometimes. I really hope that we can really workout, but I am afraid she is not letting it. I am really afraid.

Now there are so many things we have to fix before we can really be together. I do hope we can really work things out. I really do love you a lot and I can never find anyone to replace you. I am just afraid that we cannot work things out. Really afraid. Please someone tell me how to deal with it. Should I just sit quietly and take all this harsh comment or should I just let it go.

I am really stress when people ask me this:

X: When is T coming back
Me: I really dont know
X : What do you mean you don't know... I thought u are his gf.
Me: oh welll what cna I say with these gov thing.
X: U sure he still loves you ar???
Me: Yeah he does he said and I know.
X: Aiyaaaaaa u never know guys la.
Me: I know T very well he will not do anything to betray me.
X: You sure ka
Me: Aiyoooooooo......feel like dying if questions continues.

Everytime people ask me this I will surely feel like crying. What to do. Have to wait lor.

CNY, Valentines and your birthday

2008-03-02T10:30:00.002+08:00

I know it has been a while since I blogged. Was pretty busy with work and my sooo stuffed up relationship. CNY was great I guess..... Valentines was crap, I was at home after work watching Amazing race asia. Sighhh... but I did get flowers from someone far away that kinda made my day felt less miserable. Anyhow since jan many things have been going on. My grandma passed away then came CNY then I went to bangkok for a shopping trip with Louise. Then came the part where I had major arguments and quarrels with him. I HATE HATE HATE this. I hate feeling like crap.

Was missing for the month

2008-01-30T15:51:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys and gals, have been missing for quite sometime. Ok lets see what happen to me this month. For a start our company's bonus is out and hurray to me, and we had our Damansara's family day and our company's dinner and also our increment. All of this happened within this month therefore had been really busy. Here I will show you some of the family's day trip.....

The trip was help at pd so we had bowling tournament and telematches. Then we gals venture out to go for a banana boat ride.

Then the following week cameour annual dinner and the theme was Zing and Zeal but our division was soo no Zing and Zeal but look what the HQ people came in.....

So did not have the time to go get a dress so just went with whatever I had. Actually I just bought this dress 2 weeks before my annual dinner, but it wasn't for the dinner just thought this dress was nice. Then after the annual dinner came my increment and muaks to everyone at the the top. I am quite happy wih the increment, but am still job hunting for a job in Singapore. So anyone out there knows any oil and gas company that needs people in Singapore please do tell me. I am looking for posts such as project engineer, procurement engineer and ermmmm I guesss thats all. Ok I will update more often in 2008. Fingers crossed.

The long awaited Post

2008-01-04T11:29:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the long long long hiatus from my blog. Have been really busy and have been really having sucky emotions. Anyhow 2007 gone like the wind and 2008 is here. A new year and hopefully a new me. So I have been spending christmas day having lunch and dinner with my friends....

See how we indulge ourselves during Christmas and complain after that.Sigh.

After the lunch we decided to burn our heavy lunch by going shopping in Bangsar. You see girls will always be girls, we love shopping and gossiping so when we are free you will find us either shopping or gossiping. I later have to rushed to a friends Christmas dinner party at her new boutique. Not much pictures though. Just one random pic of me not with the boutique's owner. She is a pretty chick by the way. Hahahahahahahaha.

Then comes new year eve, where I met a group of nice people AS, WC, TO and AS's friends. They are the sweetest guys and also fun to hang out with people, Its like you can feel safe partying with them and also you feel like a family. They are the most gentlement of the gentlement if you know what I mean. Anyhow would like to spend next year's new year's eve with them too also thanks to Louise for suggesting us to go to KL hilton for the new year's eve celebration. Love it heaps and also I enjoyed it. Here are some pixies.

Us taking more pixies before the countdown and the fireworks spectacular.

See these 2 guys below are the nicest gentlement cute and nice.

Plus at KL hilton the view is spectacular. Look at the view and the fireworks. Its really the best ever.

That's all.

A rough weekend

2007-12-17T10:00:00.000+08:00

Was really busy over the weekend. Sat was my frens boutique's grand opening and I was there helping out. Phew sooo tired..... Then was down in True fitness LM launch and then to MV for movie with my sis. So you see then Sunday just came in less than a few hours. Arghhhhh will blog more later and will also update some pics later.

What a weekend

2007-12-10T14:05:00.000+08:00

Sorry I did not really have time to blog in the weekends. I was really busy running up and down and also helping my fren in her new and upcoming boutique. Her grand opening will be on the 15th dec 2007 which is next week
which is why she is really busy here is a sneak preview of what she has.......

Ok enough of preview so everyone please do come and visit her shop at Unit 20-1, 1st floor, 3rd mile square, 3 1/2 mile old klang road. Guys bring your gf along too.

Singapore Marathon

2007-12-06T21:41:00.000+08:00

Finally back and able to blog. Sorry for not blogging for so long. Anyway went to the Singapore Marathon and did the half marathon which is 21.1 km and i took a little over 3 hours. Yes 3 hours. However it did not seems like 3 hours it was fun except the last 3 kms were really a hell for me seriously i think i nearly wanted to give up. But bravo to me I made it and I lasted till the end. Anway here is a pic before I went for the run

and for the after marathon will need to wait for anne to give it to me :P.

Anyway here are some pics of us in orchard.....

There you go and I love Singapore, I love shopping there but the food there its not really to what I expect. Food in KL in my opinion are much better. Will blog more later.

I got TAGGED !!!!!!

2007-12-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

Got tagged by Tim, So I think why not just do it since I haven't done any before.

*list out 20 friends of mine and answer the questions that follow.*

1. Tim

2.YL lee

3. Caryn

4. Rayne Lim

5. Alex

6. Darrel

7. Tommy

8. Shawnn

9. Patrick Lee

10. Thomas

11. Lesley

12. Anne

13. Shirwin

14. Amilin

15. Jane

16. Lydia

17. Anita

18. Caroline

19. Yong

20. Ryan

See how much I know them.....

1. How you get to know 14 ( Amilin )

From Work ( Transwater)

2. What would you do if you never met 1?( Tim )

Maybe not writing this... and not meeting comet.

3. What will you do if 9 and 20 dated you? (Patrick Lee and Ryan)

Er…they're both guys

4. Would 6 and 17 make good couple ? (Darrel and Anita)

Don't really know probably since Anita is hot.

5. do you think 8 is attractive? (Shawnn)

Depends on how you see it.

6. Do you know anything about no. 12’s family? (Anne)
Not really… just met her a month ago.

7. Tell me something about 7. (Tommy)
I think he likes me. :S

8. What is no 18’s favourite? (Caroline)
Money and Guys

9. What languange does 15 speak? (Jane)
Ermm English, Malay canto i think

10. Who is 19 going out with? (Yong)
I don't really know.

11. How old is 16 now? (Lydia)
Ermm I think she is 25 now

12. When was the last time you talked to 13? (Shirwin)
Through msn this afternoon..... =P

13. Who is 2’s favourite singer? (YL Lee)
I think Lee Hac ken kua or Jacky Cheung kua

14. Would you date 4? (Rayne Lim)
Haha she is already married.

15. Would you date no. 17? (Anita)
Haha no la

16. Is 15 single? (Jane)
Nop she is happly with someone.

17. What is no 10’s last name? (Thomas)
Lau

18. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11? (Lesley)
Hahaha She is happly with Anne how sweet are you guys together.

19. Which school does 3 goes to? (Caryn)
Not sure though.

20. Where does 6 live? (Darrel)
Ermm In KL.

21. What is your favourite thing about no. 5? (Alex)
He always acting cute. hahahahahahaha.

Yeah I am done!! OK now for tagging people.. For those of you who see your names there on the list, you’re tagged!!!!! (if you have a blog, or blogs!) ^.^

Something new

2007-11-28T14:34:00.000+08:00

My old mouse died on me 2 weeks ago ( the one i use for my office lappy). So I requested a new mouse from the IT department and it took them 2 weeks to get me a new mouse but look I got this pink logitech mouse

and look at it sooo cute. It looks better than my old one. Oh the new one has a clip so i can roll the wire up. He he he he.

Look at it so awful the old one.

Ok enough of my mouse.

I have ermmm say 2 more days before I go to Singapore for the Standard Chartered run. I have not even packed, or thought about what to wear. This is a disaster coz the gals wanna go clubbing on Sunday night after the run and probably get a bit pissed...not sure about that. Anyways I know I have to bring my heels and my running shoes and a slippers. The rest not sure yet. I have not even change my money let alone plan what to do in Singapore. My plans over there are very unpredictable at the moment as I have not have any firm confirmations on the people that is going out with me. So its just going to be an impromtu thing I think. The only thing that is confirm till dat is I have to collect my running bibs upon arrival which is a Sat and also I would have to run the 21km marathon. Whether I will finish it a not that will be another problem. Hmmmmm lets just pray I will finish. Time doesn't matter. So I think I better get it running man and oh ya I will be off work onMonday as I will only be back from Singapore on Monday. Will try to take many many pics. Hopefully anne can take my dying picture at the finishing line.

Random post

2007-11-26T15:28:00.000+08:00

I am really bored now. Was like super busy this morning till now. Damm I hate it when you have to get everthing done before 3 pm. Then what I am going to do after that. Sit and blog. Anyway I dont really know what to blog about. One guy told me se*x ok fine I will but what about se*x should I post about. Hmmmm

********** Still Thinking ********** will blog back when I know what to blog about*******

More random Pics

2007-11-25T12:15:00.000+08:00

Here are some on my dog. Tell me if you love him tooo.

Look he looks soo innocent.

We let him in the house and he starts to get all excited.

I think he thinks why am I still snaping pics on him.

trying to calm him down

You see I told you soo hard to get him to stay still.

And then he fell asleep after 2 hours of excitment and no one wanna play with him anymore. So he fell asleep. He is sooo a house dog. Maybe we should let him in the house more often.

Bye bye Lesley

2007-11-24T16:02:00.000+08:00

Last night one of our best friend decided to host a farewell party for Lesley as she is going to work in Singapore beginning mid of Dec. Good Luck to you Lesley and we will definately miss you. We had heaps of fun together hopefully we will be able to go for more trips together. Anyway will be stuck at home for today and tomorrow as the whole of KL will be having road block, oh wait not only KL PJ too, as there is something going on. I am not really sure whats going on anyway just know that I will be caught in a major traffic jam if I deide to go anywhere. Can you believe it I am so ignorant about whats happening around me. So here I am at home blogging away, arranging my music and trying to clean my closet up. Too many clothings already. Hahahahahahahahaha. Oh forgot to say thanks to Lydia for the wonderful cake really nice.

Doesn't it look good. It also taste good. She bought it somewhere in Aman Suria, will update where later.

Singapore Marathon here I come

2007-11-22T11:49:00.000+08:00

So I called up the people in Singapore to ask if I could change the 21kms category to 10kms but they say no last minute changes. Darn. Means by hook or by crook I have to run the 21kms. I hope I survive and not come back at 12 pm. That would be funny though. Then i can blog all about me and how I survived or died next week. The marathon will be on the 2nd dec so I will be catching a bus down with les, anne and shirwin on sat morning 8 am. Guess what guys I will be staying the Marina Mandarin and thanks to my fren we are having this room

and its gonna be on the top floor and also sea view.

wah hahahahahahahahaha.

As for the marathon ermmmmmmm fingers cross I survive. I hope i got enuff $$ to go shopping just a bit only.

Boring

2007-11-21T14:05:00.000+08:00

I am really getting bored in the office now. Its not like I have nothing to do its just I am sooo freaking lazy to do. I soo have to clean my desk it looks like a paper trash.... look

You see what I mean. This is the cause of 1/3 of a project that was finally delivered last sat. Now I got 2/3 more to go. Shits man. Sighh man reallly, so I think there will gonna be more papers starting next week as I have one whole free week before phase 2 and 3 begins. So from today till friday someone please please entertain me as I will be on msn chatting away. Sooo wannna die of boredness. Will update later again I think if I am really reallly bored again.

Empty office

2007-11-21T09:49:00.000+08:00

This week my office is nearly empty. Just like hari raya or chinese new year time. Hahahahahaha

Look I have prove my project department at 11 am

See how empty. Hahahahahahahaha.

I am bored

Really Bored entertain me please someone.

Headache

2007-11-16T14:57:00.000+08:00

You see nowadays I have to have at least 2 glasses of wine to put me to sleep. I feel soo tired and stress. The only thing that I am happy is because I can shop for cheap and nice clothings. Sighhhh....... Feeling depress and tired and stress. I looked like a mummy right now. Sighhh. What a thing to do la. Seriously i am sooo sooo sooo blur these days. I can day dream when I drive and best part is I am doing stuff just like a robot. Sighh. What a life. I need a holiday or a break if not I will definately break down and cry. Wait I did cry but not the break down part. Anyhowz I hope I can have a great weekend and be happy bout it la.

Some random pics my fren found.

2007-11-15T16:26:00.000+08:00

Recently there is this fren that gave me some random pictures that are quite cute anyway I will just post them and let you guys decide whether its cute.

Stress for no reason.

2007-11-15T16:16:00.000+08:00

Recently I have been pulling all my hairs out to figure and get things done, but when things are done your way the managers will put the blame on you even though it is done. See now in life I believe there is no good deed for people who get s things done. No one wants to bare the responsibilities so in return you get blame because afterall you are just a JUNIOR and to them you don't need the money to feed your family. Excuse me seriously for whoever that is thinking like that. All I can say that you are such a pervert and a fool. Don't backstab and make sure you bare all the mistakes you did and keep to your bloody promises. Don't be a sissy and pull my hair from behind tell me straight forward.

Anyhows I will get over it soon. I am a strong gal. I will stand up and face you. I will and I will do it and will survive.

My Dog

2007-11-12T09:47:00.000+08:00

Here are some pics of my dog his name is Benson but we call him Ben. Anyhow here are some pics of him.

Mom was teaching him to do some tricks. I have no idea what. Mom is always teaching him something from sitting to fetching newspaper to now the latest one i think it was sleep. Hahahahahahaha.

You see he really sleeps hahahahahaha.

I know he is huge but he is also cute and ermmmm he is scared of mice. Really funny.

He was much cuter and smaller when he was a baby now at a year and a bit more he is offically a monster in the outside and a baby in the inside. I love him. Muaks.

Hope my parents will allow me to have a smaller dog in future.

Thats all for now.

What do you do when you are drunk??

2007-11-11T10:17:00.000+08:00

i was soo sooo sooo pissed last night that I did not know who really and what I talked about. That was really bad. You see when you don' get use to drinking anymore like last time you get drunk really easily 1 bottle of red wine thats all it takes. You see when a girl is drunk either they tend to do funny funny stuff or they vomit or they start talking and yakking non stop. Just make sure you get them just drunk not sober not overly drunk. Ha ha ha . WHAT THE **** am I talking about you see the after effect. Ok anyway was soo lucky I was home and drunk hahahaha. Couldn't really sleep till 1 sumething am and woke up at 4 am. The best part is I dun even feel tired now. Maybe I will later. As for yesterday I made lunch and dinner for the family. As for today I will attempt to make vietnamease spring roll and spaghetti marinara for lunch and hopefully my barbeque wings will work out ok for dinner. Will try to take pictures before digging in later. Wish me luck and will also blog about the success of it. Thats all folks and oh ya I will also be uploading my dog pics up later so you can see how cute he is. Mind you he is a bit big but trust me only in size.

What do you do when u feel like crying.

2007-11-09T11:18:00.000+08:00

What do you do when life is not what you think it will be. You go out with some nice frens and eat... this

and then you feel like this

For her she feels pretty for me I feel happy again and for him I dunno never even asked him.

when you feel like this you will start eating all these

So at the end of the day after all these eating and bitching you feel all goood and so wanna sleep. Thats what I did the whole last night. slept from 9 pm till this morning 7 am. Today I feel soo fresh and also I feel like this is going to be a good weekend for me. Yeee haaaa...

Blurred by I don't know what.

2007-11-07T11:49:00.000+08:00

What do you do when you suddenly hit a crossroad and you don't know what is your next step? What do you do when suddenly you don't have the directions in life anymore. Do you turn away, move on or just let life pass by you slowly one minute at a time. You see when you in my position somehow you will become clueless. I can blurry see many doors opening up for me but yet somehow I cannot seem to decide which door to open. I guess some people says that I am confused.

You see the thing is when you don;t have the correct leader to lead it will also be a problem. What should I do???

Continue here or move on that is the question.

Oh welll I guess i have to just think of a way out I am 24 and old enough to make my own decision in life and I am not going to let anyone ruining it even if it has to take my life away. I will fight for my rights and also for what I deserve till the end.

Please tell me what I should do.

Oh ya do any of you guys know how do you cure shopaholics?????
I need the cure asap before I dry out my bank account.

A nite in Country Heights

2007-11-02T10:04:00.000+08:00

Last weekend I had a really great time in Kajang country heights. Shirwin was soo nice to invited us for the night. Anyway after all the food and alcohol we ended up like this

Look lesley is either really drunk or she is sober and Jane is starting to act really cute and all of us are just too blur to notice what happen. Look what else we did.......

You seee really I have nothing to say and we just went to bed later....

Anyway I was blur too.

Ok this will blog soon.

Life in the office

2007-10-26T10:11:00.000+08:00

There there rayne..... rememeber you saying that I can live without the internet.... I have been doing that for 2 years. Now how do you feel now? I can see you feel uneasy, bored and at times down. See this is whats happening to the office nowadys. Not everyone has access to the internet, hence our staffs that does not have the luxury of accessing the internet has to line up and use the only station that has full access to the internet which looks like school children going to school where to have to line up and use the computers in the library. How sad you see. Anyway I can see that smokers in the company smokes more often now since there is nothing else to do except to work and smoke. People tend to feel demotivated and restless. See how technology gets into ur nerves. The bet part is it has only been 2 weeks..... 2 blardy weeks. Anyway aside that, I have been stressed out by patatoes in by the people in HQ. This particular guy he issued the PO and he tells me that he doesn't have it. Great so you do the owrk and you don't have the work. What a great thing to do. I was like up till my head and he has to give me this stupid question. Sighhhhhhhhhh. Anyway enough of rambling bout my work. Aside from that relationship kinda sucks to me right now. Anyway adios rite now.

Should I stay or should I alight and try my luck elsewhere.

2007-10-08T09:36:00.000+08:00

It has come to a point of life that you have to make decisions and when the decisions are made I would have to stick to it. You see I get influence by people and things around me really easily. and there come a time in life where I think its now I would have to think and evaluate decisions that have been made by myself. Life may not always be well what we always expect it to bejust that sometimes I guess I have to take the bitter part of life. I have always thought of going a step further in life but everytime I get stuck I tend to give up. I do fall easily but I can stand up fast enough. Sigh...... Life's really challenging for me at the moment....... I guess I have to rest my case now and continue to live my life. Will post something better later.

Life pretty much sucks for me now

2007-10-05T16:08:00.000+08:00

Are we suppose to do what people think is right or do what people think is right. I soo wanna be successful in life and so wanna be someone in life. I think I am just being bullied all this while. Used me as much as you want. Throw me here and there. Maybe I am childish or maybe I don't understand and maybe I don't see the world the way you see it. When I earn something I expect to be rewarded. Maybe I didn't do good enough that's why I need to be punished like that. Oh well I think maybe I think to highly about myself. I should start to think for myself more. If I continue to be whatever I am doing right now I will never see the lights again. I wanna see the lights and I don't mind sacrificing all my time and everything. All I want is to be appreciated. My one year is nearly up by end of October and I am not being rewarded. I guess my patience is being tested now. Wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait......... all I have to do is wait. I believe that if I wait I will be rewarded..... sigh hopefully that happens. Dream on gal.