This is strange

Come to think about it, the people at my work place is jealous because I can so call handle everything that they can do. So therefore they just dont want me to work that much shifts so that they will not be threaten by me. This is just strange , so I come to think aboout it , what the hell just do itlor. They want me to work how many shifts I will just take it, inreturn I seriously hope that when something comes up they will ask me to work lor. I really need the money. So hopefully they will know that

LIFE ........ what is it?????

Y do you have to fall in love.... I mean you will be stuck with that thing adn then ou will end up attached to that thing. It sucks Being alone is much much easier where you don't have to depend on anyone. But u still do need friends do you? It hurts to be like this. Does life actually sucks or just I suck at leading my life. I don't know what to think anymore. Things are changing and I am not sure whether I can ever keep up with it. life do really sucks. Arghhhhhhhhhh how can I keep my self from feeling like what I feel now. Love is cruel , y everytime you fall in love it doesn't work out. and when it works out, you will have to break up soon or later. Maybe that is life. :ife and rel;ationship sucks. I only like it when u r in love and when its time to get out of it you will suffer. Not unless you can let it go easily
But who can do that. You see even the married onez will end up aloone one day. So y do we need relationships or our other half. Y can;t we live alone and be alone. Maybe thn no one will be able to hurt us. At least you don't haqve to worry who will not like your other half. All you need to know is that you will have to earn enough for yourself and make urself happy. Love is not a must. hwat is important is u don't get hurt. But i ned love and friends and family how do I do it so I don;t have to think about it. what can I do so that my life is alone without all these love , friends and family around me. How can I control my emotions. How can I say no to all my emotions. Even now I feel that my emotions are speaking for me. Is life that crueal. some says its a sin to be a human. I don't knnow what to think and to believed. Maybe that statement is right , when we have emotions we feel sad , sorrow and also everything that comes inthe emotion package. What I don;t understand is if we are born as sins why do we feel love and happiness and joy. How can we see how beautiful this earth is and how can we know how much we love earth and at the same time we also hate it. I don;t know what to feel anymore. I am numb with all his treatments. I don't know why but I still LOVE him alot. All I want is to be love back. Is that hard? Only HE can answer me.

snow trip.....

There's a lot of things you wouldn't know about some people until you have actually lived with that person. They can be really selfish and also self centred. Why do they act like that. Even T acts like that. If they are not happy they don't have to put it up on us. All they do is try to create attention. Have thy ever thought of us the little people or so called friends around them. Do they actually know that this is wrong. Afetr all that you tell them what happen all they do is think of themselves as right not wong. HAve they ever sat down and think the world does not evolved around them only. We have limits. If you don't want to share please do not announced. For the one who knows their mistake but what can they do all they says is I will make it up for you. I will I will..... yeah right. What can you do. Try to accompany me , try to sopend all you can afford to spend on me, try to be nice to me. What if yopu are nott able to make it to your goals, have you ever thought about me. Selfish , all you wanna know is just yourself. And plus what you promise me now............. I mean now...................
For the ones that doesn't know their mistake you will know when all your friends leave you without a reason and then you will feel it. I am just warning you ..... Everyone ghave their limits and we think your limits are welll overboard now . Just think of it yourself you will know what to do I am sure you will. You are smart you wil know what to do before all your friends leave you and start creating their own circle and you will be left out. Besides all that the ski trip was fun. You realise a lot of things from the trip you know who are friends and foul and also who is active and also who cannot play. Oh welll for those who cannot play good luck. Oh yes , i am sure of going snowboarding in another 2-3 weeks depending on whether I have the money to spend a not. How sad I think I have to survive on instant noodles and bread for another 2-3 weeks so that I can have enough money for my trip. so yeah hopefully I will be able to safe enough....... This time a lot of people is coming. Yeah hopefully we can take a mopre difficult class so we can have more fun. Hopefully its not hard , I really wanna know how to snowboard. This is last year so I wanna have as much fun as possible. If its possible I will come back next year and go for skiing agin .... heehehehehehehe ........... This trip has brough me alot of joy and also sadness so hopefully the next one will only be fun and joy.