Relationships

RELATIONSHIPS
I have totally given up in relationships. What are relationships for when you dont enjoy it. I rather have partners and just be happy with. Just someone that will be there for me when I am sad and that will be there for me when I am happy to share all my feelings and also allow me to care for him too. I think its really hard to find someone that you love and loved you back. Its hard to find someone that will be able to take care of you and not only just financially but mentally. Nowadays its really hard to get guys that can do these. I am not asking the person to be a certain race or a certain standard in life. All I ask for is not a lot. I really think sometimes when people say that T really loves me and all...... but he left me to be all alone for so many years. How do I feel?????
Things are just gonna be different....in relationships everyone has to sacrifice or put a foot out. We have to be able to accept our partners flaws and learn to love them for who we are. What have I got after all these years.........
Sigh.................

Holidays.......

Weeeee I will be in Melbourne from the 18th till the 28th of Dec.........This means a lot of shopping I can do on Boxing Day...... also a lot of parties to go to. Thinking of it just makes me sooo happy now. I really hope KJ gets well soon. So bee, sozee darling, chi get everyone and lets go clubbing and shopping. I sooo wanna shop will I drop drop drop on boxing day and eat eat eat. This means I reallly need to go on a diet now. I know u wont let me stop eating. I wont I will try to workout more. He he he I dont wanna make you unhappy. After the Melbourne trip I will be going to Langkawi with the boys and we are going to drink till we drop hahahahahahahahahahaha.

So in Dec I will shop til I drop and drink til I drop. This means I have to detox detox and detox in Jan. Oh well I guess its worth it. Anyway will be going to Kristy's full moon party tommorow so I will update you guys soon.

The wake up calll

Have finallly figured out what I want and don't want to dwell into it that much. What ever it is its not my lost and sometimes things that don't belong to you will never belong to you. Just accept the fact and live with it. That's what I am doing now. Just striving for what is mine and will try to keep it mine.