I failed badly in my past relationship. cheated, lied to, and deceived. I have been loyal to the X but what I get is just this. He went off got himself a chick and marries. What about those promises he made when we were on a long distance relationship....hmmm. Anyway its over and I have already hopped onto another ship. How's this ship?????
He is nice, treats me well and all u ever wanted in a guy but the down side to it is mom and dad does not like him. Its the race thing. Sigh.
I have seriously ran out of ideas on what to do. I think I am going to leave it as it is till he pushes to get married and then at that time i will have to see what I should do. I know I know it will be very soon but who knows what will happen to me till then i don't wanna commit to anything.
Don't get me wrong here, I am all ready to get married ever since the X said he will marry me no matter what. But I guess its not my time and luck.
Maybe I am meant to not be married. Maybe its better then I don't have to make anyone sad or mourn when I die. And yes its ok to die alone and have no one at your funeral, because you won't even notice it and when you die its a whole new afterlife and I don't know what will happen. So its there a different between dying alone and dying with a whole lot of people in ur funeral.
Don't get me wrong here I do love K very much and wish to be with him day and night but with the whole mom and dad not allowing thing, I am realllly reallllly stressed. I guess either way I will be unhappy. I guess I will know by then what to do.
What will you do in my situation.
Marry K when he is ready?
or not marry him because of your family?
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