Should I stay or should I alight and try my luck elsewhere.

It has come to a point of life that you have to make decisions and when the decisions are made I would have to stick to it. You see I get influence by people and things around me really easily. and there come a time in life where I think its now I would have to think and evaluate decisions that have been made by myself. Life may not always be well what we always expect it to bejust that sometimes I guess I have to take the bitter part of life. I have always thought of going a step further in life but everytime I get stuck I tend to give up. I do fall easily but I can stand up fast enough. Sigh...... Life's really challenging for me at the moment....... I guess I have to rest my case now and continue to live my life. Will post something better later.

Life pretty much sucks for me now

Are we suppose to do what people think is right or do what people think is right. I soo wanna be successful in life and so wanna be someone in life. I think I am just being bullied all this while. Used me as much as you want. Throw me here and there. Maybe I am childish or maybe I don't understand and maybe I don't see the world the way you see it. When I earn something I expect to be rewarded. Maybe I didn't do good enough that's why I need to be punished like that. Oh well I think maybe I think to highly about myself. I should start to think for myself more. If I continue to be whatever I am doing right now I will never see the lights again. I wanna see the lights and I don't mind sacrificing all my time and everything. All I want is to be appreciated. My one year is nearly up by end of October and I am not being rewarded. I guess my patience is being tested now. Wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait......... all I have to do is wait. I believe that if I wait I will be rewarded..... sigh hopefully that happens. Dream on gal.

Playing with fire...............

I recently played with fire..... P fell in love with me at first sight and I dont even like him initially but after the continuous attention and sweet talk I am actually ok with him as a friend. So I'm now confuse if I like him or its just a fling. You see he is soo old, not really old and I get disgusted sometimes hearing bout him and thinking bout him. I just think what sort of weird person is this. oh well this will end soon. I hope.

What's Life.........

I know I have been a really hard on freak these days but the truth is I see life as a blank piece of paper or what some people says as a highway without signboards. I am not sure what I want to do but one thing is for sure I would love to suceed in life. Last nite my company had a buka puasa dinner in one of the hotels around our office. One of my GM tells me that I have a flare in sales since day one he sees me. How can that be true ? If it is what he said why am I still stuck in here. He told me he could see me suceed in life. To what extend is that true......... sometimes I know people tell u things just to tell you. So I don't know what is true and what's fake. Anyhow I need a change in what I am doing. I dont see a career advancement in what I do know......sigh. I need to change, I need to stand up for myself. Life like this cannot go on forever as I know I will never be someone. I am not an ambitous gal just a gal who wants to be someone in life. Who doesn't wanna be someone in life as we only have live once. There you go my update of the month. Will try to update more soon.

My Penang Bridge marathon Run + makan makan

This is sooo sooo tiring, my trip up to Penang for a marathon wait let me correct that a quarter marathon because its just a 10 km fun run. Hahaha the way they put it 10 kms. Any way I went with my sis, rpmgal, swan gal and runner gal. So we caught the bus to penang on friday night but runner gal did not come along with us on friday cause she had something to do. Therefore she caught the next bus in the morning. Any way we reached penang at 4.30 am and we were hoteless. Luckly there was chilipadi that voluntereed to pick us and took us to the original kayu behind vistana hotel. Hence we were there eating 2 breakfast till 7 am then off to FF in IP and rpm gal and swan decided to sleep in the ff bathroom. So funny , chillipadi and sis did bit of workout. Then chillipadi got bored so she decided to go to the beach, therefore off we went to the beach. Here are some pictures......

The four of us , swan took it. Look at rpmgal rrr until soo thin....

Me and chillipadi. She is sooo cute...........dun u love her.

Look at the amount of foof we ate.... shitzzzz man

This looks like we ate a whole village full of food and yet it cost us less than RM 60.

Cheap ya.

So next day me rpmgal and swan went for the run. Guess what that runner gal came back in 3 and half hours and the best part is she ran 42kms. Yes thats y she is runner gal and crazy women tooo. Don't really know how she did it, anyhows we got lunch from her so alls good.

I guess thats all about my running and eating trip. Till the next running and eating trip comes I will have to be on a diet now. Sigh sigh..................

Gals fight or Cats fights

A while ago I kinda had a fight (verbal fight la) with this gal friend of mine. I mean she is kinda unappreciative so okay I over reacted and so does the bf unappreciative. Anyway hope they will be able to live with that stupid ego forever. He did not even say thank you. What a jerk. As for her no friends ma no friends lor. I am like ok. Thought she will cool off. No no she did not she really thinks friends come soo easily and friends do not fight. Oh well maybe she really thinks soo that is why at one time she can tell me I don't have many friends. I mean come on man don't be soo cool u r pretty. Some one will like u one day and poof out of no where I did a good thing and what I got a a good person full of rubbish. Anyway enuf of bragging. Lets just say its be being dumb and stupid. Never trust a friend that has no friends. If that make sense.
Anyway I will let cool soon.

I am back

Sorry for the long hiatus from this blog. I guess I really have not been blogging for a really long time. Kinda miss blogging at times but oh well okok let me see what I have done soo far since november last year. I am still loving that red dog. I am thinking i I should get back with the train and just be a happy women. I am in the midst of doing really nothing much. I am going round and round in circles in bs. I am doing nothing much in life. Have been shopping heaps. Ermm took up pt but not much weight lost.... sigh sigh. Ermmm started running marathons since March and am looking forward to my first half marathon in Dec....fingers crossed i finished the marathon. Am looking forward to frens getting married.. means less frens to go shopping also means more money saved=getting my dream car earlier. As for guys not many in the process at the moment as I really think they kinda suck at times. Ok that was quick all in less than 20 lines. Will have more proper updates and proper pics later.

On the other note I have been to perhentian on May had heaps of fun. hehe photos here ya....

all of us trying to do something funny.

me and adeline in perhentian. ain't

she pretty.